Louis Foo is my Dad.

as many of u already know. my dad has went back to be with the LORD on 7 March 2005.

when he was here, my dad lead a very purposeful life. he impacted many many people. i think what makes my dad stand out is his humility. he never went out of his way just to be noticed. it is in those small small ways that he expresses his love and concern for others.

i will miss the times that we talk as a family. we used to discuss issues like "should i dye my hair" and "should i get a bike", driving, how my parents got together... ha, there once my dad oso tried to lead family bible study. but it was too time consuming. can't remember why we stopped actually, but i remember it was about the old and new nature.

will miss the times we go on family holidays. God has been good, nearly every year, we can go for trips. my dad seems to know the united states on the back of his hand. actually, everywhere we go, he seems to know where to go, and wad to do. i guess there's a lot of background work that goes on when my bro sis and i are aslp.

there are many things that i'll miss. but God is sovereign, he has his reasons for doing things.

Oh, the depth of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God!
How unsearchable his judgements, and his paths beyound tracing out!
"Who has known the mind of the Lord? Or who has been his counselor?"
"Who has ever given to God, that God should repay him?"
For from him and through him and to him are all things.
To him be the glory forever! Amen
Romans 11:33-36

i do not know why my dad had to go, but i know God has a plan. although i don't know that plan yet, i trust Him. Because whatever happens comes from God, and it passes though his approval, and whatever may happen, it would be to his Glory.

in this times i realli realli wanna thank God for giving me teh assurance that He is in control of things. and like always, He's still the head of the house. God, now i realli gotta depend on you. i think without you, i'd breakdown oreadi. thank you so so much for ur comfort and ur listening ear. I feel closer to you and you are a lot more real in my life now more than ever.

my dad is in heaven now, the best place ever, literarily. and i feel very happy for him cuz he can now look at God and talk to God directly and see Jesus. no more doubts, no more unanswered questions. and i still can talk to dad. even though he's in heaven, he's still aware of what goes on on earth.

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but i'll still miss him. now and then there'll be this pang of sadness that i feel. during the wake, got a lot of ppl tell me that it is when u return to normal life ,after settling all the admin and logistic stuff, after the business and preoccupation that comes with tying up loose ends, that the reality of it sinks deeper.

wah i realli feel very sad sometimes leh. it's not a complicated emotion. i just feel sad. cannot explain any better. hai, esp now when there's so much to do and catch up. i feel as though i'm just rushing on ahead with life, leaving my father behind. for sch, my dad always had an answer for prioritizing. and if i have difficulties in my group oso, my dad can set my perspective back on track. it's realli a big loss leh. dun feel like doing anything man *exhale sigh

i recognize that i'm not leaving my father behind - he know's wad is going on. and it is he that has moved on. but it's tough to accept it. it's not the fact that affects me, it's the feeling. this takes time.

...i pass the theory. now i need God to help me pass the practical.

Give me strength Lord, please give me strength, help me draw strength from you. But also give me the courage to grief. God, i dun wanna hide or hold back any tears, give me the courage to cry.

U are almighty and majestic and powerful and all knowing. Yet you are loving, caring, concerned for people. i love you for that and thank you for more.